So effectively I'm a time bomb!

But I did notice that on the Olanzepine, which is still my drug of choice as P.R.N., I was starting to behave more and more as a stressed animal would in ways that are too personal to mention. Those are the sorts of things that you wouldn't even admit to a Psychiatrist. Those are the indicators that a clever psychiatrist would look for when most of us are trying to disguise our foibles so that we can escape back to whatever closet we came from.