I've given up my cigarettes again

And I'm feeling bitchy
I have no reason
For Caring
For Myself
Because
My Love Life
Is Barren
I've always said
I'd rather be a Courtesan
Than a crims whim
As a sexual Abuse Victim
I think I'd actually like
To be Comforted
By Polite
And courteous Gentlemen
And I'd like to
Play the Harp
And put flowers
In vases
Rather than
Settle
For a Bully
To out Bully
The Bullies
I cannot bear
That there is
No romance
In my life